I am a malayalee and a proud one at that, but we mallus can laugh at ourselves too sometimes rt...Anyway I found this realy funny video on you tube and guys check it out......its really funny and if you are a mallu then, don't miss it :)
Wednesday, 21 September 2011
Thursday, 15 September 2011
ONAM
I couldn't blog for the past one week as I was at my hubby's place celebrating Onam, the kerala festival. It was just so much of fun as all the family members were around and it felt even more great as it was festival time!
Every day we would put new "athapookkalams"(flower beds or carpets....if I may translate so in english). As my husband is from the northern part of kerala, their traditions for Onam totally differs from mine, so it was like discovering new stuff all together.
the different "pookkalams" that we arranged
The biggest one was made on the last day and it took sooooo much of time but it was worth it :)
My cute nephew(on the left), isn't he the cutest........
Hope all of my Kerala friends had a great Onam. Take care and see you.......
Every day we would put new "athapookkalams"(flower beds or carpets....if I may translate so in english). As my husband is from the northern part of kerala, their traditions for Onam totally differs from mine, so it was like discovering new stuff all together.
the different "pookkalams" that we arranged
The biggest one was made on the last day and it took sooooo much of time but it was worth it :)
My cute nephew(on the left), isn't he the cutest........
Hope all of my Kerala friends had a great Onam. Take care and see you.......
Tuesday, 30 August 2011
ITS RAINING!!!!!!
Oh ya I do know that its not a biggie for a lot of people in the country right now, 'coz its raining cats and dogs everywhere else except tvm!!!! I am sooooooo happy that its raining and I am enclosing a video....ya I know am mad. We have not had a heavy rain for the past 2 months eventhough its the monsoon season. So, its such a welcome relief and ofcourse you can hear my live commentary in the background. Lol. Take care u guys :)
Sunday, 28 August 2011
MY VISIT TO THE FAMOUS SNAKE TEMPLE.....
I have been having really bad dreams these past 2 weeks about a snake chasing , biting me and ofcourse with me eventually dying! At first I was not that bothered, but I started getting a bit squeamish when the dreams started occuring every single night and mentioned this to my mother. My mom is a bit superstitious about these things and decided to visit the famous "MANNARASSALA" Temple near harippad. So, today we went there, I have visited the temple when I was little and so this time it was really nice to see everything up close and personal, 'coz one tends to remember things more now that I am older duh! :D
A little bit of history about the temple. It is a temple dedicated exclusively to snakes and the idol there is a snake who is said to live in the premises even today at the "nilavara" (an attic sort of room present in really old kerala homes) and is said to wander around at a nearby area called "appoppan kaavu". Honestly, I have no idea how to translate that in english, anyway, the whole temple is filled with trees and bushes and one feels as though they are stepping inside a jungle and to my amazement I saw a real live COBRA!!!!!! lying lazily on top of a branch and it looked really harmless.......but to be honest I really did get scared. The "kaavu" used to be a part of old kerala homes where they used to idolise snakes, pray and do offerings to them all the time. The snakes are a symbol of reproduction and especialy at this temple, couple who don't have kids come to pray and do special poojas to conceive.
The temple itself was built by the sage Parasuraman. He appointed his favourite disciple to look after the temple and it is his descendents who actually does the main poojas and are looking after the temple even now. Ok......enough with my talk let me get on with the pics now. Photography is prohibhited inside the temple, so I took a couple of pics from the outside.
The pond just outside of the temple. Everyone is supposed to wash their feet there before entering the temple. Do you see the lush greenery.......believe me the inside of the temple actually resembles a mini forest!!!
The many views of the temple from outside. Do you see the man wearing the blue shirt, he is one of the guards there and told me to switch my camera off!!! :(
The idols of snakes ,("nagadevatas" as they are called)
Once we started the drive back home, the Kerala monsoons simply took over. It was really beautiful. Anyway thank god that it ddn't rain when we were inside the temple!!!
Myself in Desi Avatar lol :D
The perfect "kerala" or the more well known "mallu" look :D
Anyway I hope you guys enjoyed reading this post, don't forget to leave your comments :)
A little bit of history about the temple. It is a temple dedicated exclusively to snakes and the idol there is a snake who is said to live in the premises even today at the "nilavara" (an attic sort of room present in really old kerala homes) and is said to wander around at a nearby area called "appoppan kaavu". Honestly, I have no idea how to translate that in english, anyway, the whole temple is filled with trees and bushes and one feels as though they are stepping inside a jungle and to my amazement I saw a real live COBRA!!!!!! lying lazily on top of a branch and it looked really harmless.......but to be honest I really did get scared. The "kaavu" used to be a part of old kerala homes where they used to idolise snakes, pray and do offerings to them all the time. The snakes are a symbol of reproduction and especialy at this temple, couple who don't have kids come to pray and do special poojas to conceive.
The temple itself was built by the sage Parasuraman. He appointed his favourite disciple to look after the temple and it is his descendents who actually does the main poojas and are looking after the temple even now. Ok......enough with my talk let me get on with the pics now. Photography is prohibhited inside the temple, so I took a couple of pics from the outside.
The many views of the temple from outside. Do you see the man wearing the blue shirt, he is one of the guards there and told me to switch my camera off!!! :(
Once we started the drive back home, the Kerala monsoons simply took over. It was really beautiful. Anyway thank god that it ddn't rain when we were inside the temple!!!
Myself in Desi Avatar lol :D
The perfect "kerala" or the more well known "mallu" look :D
Anyway I hope you guys enjoyed reading this post, don't forget to leave your comments :)
Thursday, 25 August 2011
REVIVING MY CHILDHOOD MEMORIES.......
Don't tell me that you haven't had a crush when you were 14 or 15. Well, I did.......I never did anything about it.......'coz personally I felt I was much too "cool" to fall for the emotion called "filmi-love" at that age. But, I did have my first ever crush and I never shared it with anyone. When I saw this new movie called BUBBLEGUM, I was pleasantly taken back to my teenage years when I used to think that I knew anything and everything in this world!
As the title suggests "bubblegum" lands the teenage protagonist in the eyes of his crush, soon to be "girl-friend" and also the stickiest situations possible with his parents and friends. The movie is set in 1980's in Jamshedpur and is complete with the bell bottom pants and the oh- so popular "head full of hair"!!!
Meet Vedant, the "hero" of the movie, the 14 year old who sees his "First Love" in Jenny, the new neighbour and his "Rival" in Ratan who challenges him to make the girl fall for him and yup you guessed it, he is the "Villain".
This is Vidhur, Vedant's elder brother who studies away from him at a special school meant for deaf children and comes home to visit his family for the "Holi" hoidays. He is protected by his family and eventhough vedant loves him, finds it a burden to be the translator between his friends and his deaf brother and at times feels ashamed of his elder brother.
This is Ratan aka the Villain, who thinks of himself as Dharmendra but has all sorts of tricks up his sleeve that would put a 14 year old Gulshan Grover to shame!!! :) and yup he is also trying to get Jenny all for himself.
The lovely, warm hearted, good looking Jenny who knows that both the hero and villain are out to woo her. She has still not reached the "like" or "love" stage with either of them but sure has a soft corner for our hero.
And not to forget the loving parents caught up between all this, who finally understands that their elder son who lives away from them is actually world-wise and the son who is actually living with them cannot bear the realities of life. They also learn to be "friendly" with their boys which was quite an alien concept back in the 1980's.
This movie reminded me of my good old days when internet was not there and the only way you could actually send a message to another person was by being "mobile"!!!! This is not a children's movie, I am sure that everyone who watches the movie will be able to identify themselves. Having a fight with your friend was definitely the end of everything(atleast in our minds) and not getting the understanding parents whom we obviously deserved and it also depicts a time when one starts to see the opposite sex in a different way for the first time. I thoroughly enjoyed the movie and would definitely recommend this to everyone. This takes you back to the old childhood days which we have definitely left behind but, can we ever forget those golden days.......nahhhhh I don't think so! :).
As the title suggests "bubblegum" lands the teenage protagonist in the eyes of his crush, soon to be "girl-friend" and also the stickiest situations possible with his parents and friends. The movie is set in 1980's in Jamshedpur and is complete with the bell bottom pants and the oh- so popular "head full of hair"!!!
Meet Vedant, the "hero" of the movie, the 14 year old who sees his "First Love" in Jenny, the new neighbour and his "Rival" in Ratan who challenges him to make the girl fall for him and yup you guessed it, he is the "Villain".
This is Vidhur, Vedant's elder brother who studies away from him at a special school meant for deaf children and comes home to visit his family for the "Holi" hoidays. He is protected by his family and eventhough vedant loves him, finds it a burden to be the translator between his friends and his deaf brother and at times feels ashamed of his elder brother.
This is Ratan aka the Villain, who thinks of himself as Dharmendra but has all sorts of tricks up his sleeve that would put a 14 year old Gulshan Grover to shame!!! :) and yup he is also trying to get Jenny all for himself.
The lovely, warm hearted, good looking Jenny who knows that both the hero and villain are out to woo her. She has still not reached the "like" or "love" stage with either of them but sure has a soft corner for our hero.
And not to forget the loving parents caught up between all this, who finally understands that their elder son who lives away from them is actually world-wise and the son who is actually living with them cannot bear the realities of life. They also learn to be "friendly" with their boys which was quite an alien concept back in the 1980's.
This movie reminded me of my good old days when internet was not there and the only way you could actually send a message to another person was by being "mobile"!!!! This is not a children's movie, I am sure that everyone who watches the movie will be able to identify themselves. Having a fight with your friend was definitely the end of everything(atleast in our minds) and not getting the understanding parents whom we obviously deserved and it also depicts a time when one starts to see the opposite sex in a different way for the first time. I thoroughly enjoyed the movie and would definitely recommend this to everyone. This takes you back to the old childhood days which we have definitely left behind but, can we ever forget those golden days.......nahhhhh I don't think so! :).
Friday, 12 August 2011
THE BABY TALK...........
I think every married woman who has completed one month (one year in my case) has to give her "very clear" answer to the much dreaded question......."when are you having babies"........."why don't you have them now.....everyone else is having babies"..........!!!!!!!!!!, Well, those exclamation marks is my shock, as I never thought I would get cornered with a straight forward question like that. I sip the glass of water(which I am having in my mind) and calm myself down and flash my pearly whites(now I know why I use colgate!!!) and say "Achamma(grandmother....well.....its HIS) I am studying and we are thinking about it.....Ya the hell we are!!! more like the Hell I am!!!
Its so overrated....I know......this conversation is meant to happen someday but when the question is put forth the real deal is AM I READY YET........I do know lot of women who juggle just about anything and everything in their life and hats off to them but sadly am not one among them. I still have trouble finding my books, doing my laundry and preparing my own meal and more importantly do I have it in me to be the perfect MOM...... I honestly don't know. People say that one just learns these kind of things and I am sure that I will love my baby to itsy bitsy pieces but am I ready to take the "RESPONSIBILITY" .......to look after another human being.....if I am not interested in having food I can just starve, but I wont be able to tell my child to starve huh....
Some of the answers that I have thought up that might pacify or enrage my husband's relatives:-
1) We ARE trying from day one!!!!
2) I would like to finish my PG and think about kids......which I will back up with (coz I will be getting piercing stares by then) but "We are trying from day one" :)
3) I am not a very responsible person....so I don't think its a good idea
4) Oh well, husband is having the "treatment" done(the most meanest one ever.....which I always think in my mind to use....but can't!!!)....am not THAT desperate........right.....
When I told my hubby he was like "Just humour them......they are old...we will try when you are ready"......well, thats a relief to hear coming from your better half. But how long.......I have no idea.
I strongly believe that a kid is much more appreciated in a family when he or she becomes a need and not a want.......and I am still waiting for my NEED to kick in......
As of now, am happy with my exam preps, blogs, life and ofcourse Family guy and True blood :D
Tuesday, 26 July 2011
I WAS DUPED!
Well.....am not a Narcissistic personality(or so I think).....but definitely its nice to know when someone tells you that they look up to you or you inspire them......blah blah blah......you get the drift right? We all know when someone is trying to butter you up.....but is anyone that clever ever not to fall for "flattery"........I do know now that am prone to it!
This happened very recently. I got a comment in my other blog from a fellow blogger and at first glance I even thought of it as spam. This person has commented as to how inspired she was with my blog and that she really loves it a lot and to top it off claimed that I was the "inspiration" for her to start her own blog! Whoa....that was enough to send me "to the moon and back" :D. I was actually really touched, I visited her blog and I saw that it is in fact quite nice and all it needed was a bit sprucing up......So, me acting out as the "mentor" gave some pointers and gave her some genuine advice as she had touched the "Frasier" in me( I hope all you guys know Frasier, the pompous lovable psychiatrist that stole our hearts with his adorable show).
Anyway, I even told about this incident to some of my friends( I was actually very proud of myself) and went on blabbing as to how great it is to have touched someone like this and all that B***S***. Here I was tripping all over myself and looking at the blue skies.........ahhhhh somethings are not meant to last right? Today I found that this particular "blogger friend" of mine has used the same words and commented to a number of other bloggers that I know!!!! so much for my inflated ego.....
I am not angry with this other person for doing like this....maybe she has her own reasons and maybe she really did get "inspired"( am beginning to hate the word lol) from all those other bloggers too. Just then I understood that flattery said at the right time does get people anywhere and everywhere!!!! I was a bit embarassed to have thought that I had somehow reached atleast a bit of "celebrity status" in the blogger world.......ahhhhhh well.........who am I kidding.....anyway waiting for the next set of flattery filled comments, this time I WON'T GET PUNK'D ......or so I hope :D.......so long guys and by the way feel free to leave sugary sweet comments below this post, my deflated ego does need a little boost :)
This happened very recently. I got a comment in my other blog from a fellow blogger and at first glance I even thought of it as spam. This person has commented as to how inspired she was with my blog and that she really loves it a lot and to top it off claimed that I was the "inspiration" for her to start her own blog! Whoa....that was enough to send me "to the moon and back" :D. I was actually really touched, I visited her blog and I saw that it is in fact quite nice and all it needed was a bit sprucing up......So, me acting out as the "mentor" gave some pointers and gave her some genuine advice as she had touched the "Frasier" in me( I hope all you guys know Frasier, the pompous lovable psychiatrist that stole our hearts with his adorable show).
Anyway, I even told about this incident to some of my friends( I was actually very proud of myself) and went on blabbing as to how great it is to have touched someone like this and all that B***S***. Here I was tripping all over myself and looking at the blue skies.........ahhhhh somethings are not meant to last right? Today I found that this particular "blogger friend" of mine has used the same words and commented to a number of other bloggers that I know!!!! so much for my inflated ego.....
I am not angry with this other person for doing like this....maybe she has her own reasons and maybe she really did get "inspired"( am beginning to hate the word lol) from all those other bloggers too. Just then I understood that flattery said at the right time does get people anywhere and everywhere!!!! I was a bit embarassed to have thought that I had somehow reached atleast a bit of "celebrity status" in the blogger world.......ahhhhhh well.........who am I kidding.....anyway waiting for the next set of flattery filled comments, this time I WON'T GET PUNK'D ......or so I hope :D.......so long guys and by the way feel free to leave sugary sweet comments below this post, my deflated ego does need a little boost :)
Wednesday, 13 July 2011
STUDY,CAREER,WORK,FAMILY.....SURELY ONE NEEDS ALL THAT TO BE PERFECT HUH?
Is it OK to feel jealous when one of your best friend is getting married? Or should I correct myself when I am already MARRIED!!!! Well, I have been married for a year, I do have a wonderful husband........but I do think.... do I have everything that actually counts???? My friend who got married right now did everything in perfect order...completed her graduation, spent one year cramming for a pg seat, got it the very next year and now got married to a really nice guy....ok so let me correct myself, I am not jealous......just "envious" when everything goes in the "chronological" order for someone else and not me. I am allowed to feel some emotion rt.....
I am now stuck with two major things in life, snag a pg seat and oh ya in the mean time get "pregnant" too......why are women always needed to do the eternal juggling? I can just see myself with my big fat radiology book in one hand and a crying baby on the other while my cell phone is jammed into my ear with my working shoulder and screaming to my husband about him having it easy.....So now I wonder....the things that we all consider too good to be true can sometimes be just that "too good to be true"!!!!
I now am at a stage when I am actually doing hide and seek with the society 'coz am so fed up with questions from friends asking me "Didn't you get a pg seat yet?" duh! if I did do they think I would be waiting for them to ask me that question.......I would be howling from the rooftops!!!!! and ya ofcourse not to forget the sweet questions from "his" relatives....."When are we going to see the lil ones" ohhhhhh F*&^.....sorry about the language...
So now, am waiting patiently to turn into the "superwoman" who just about manages everything.....personal life and professional life with so much ease....and the glorious tag would be ......"still!!!! studying" mom or the "working" mom? Guess I will stick with the pic below :)
and the most dreaded question........am I ready for all those things said above.....well.....I guess......baby steps would be enough for now.......let me figure out a way to hold my radiology book straight and squabble with my husband.......atleast for now!!! :)
Friday, 3 June 2011
AKON & CHAMMAK CHALLO............
I heard about the leaking of Shahrukh's latest "RA-ONE" Chammak Challo song into the internet. The song release has not yet taken place and the movie is scheduled to be released only on October. God! What has this world come down to.......leaking these songs even before its formally released.......what a shame!!! But hey I had to rush to youtube and hear it for myself...after all its AKON!!!! and who doesn't like him. First time when I heard it I was like BLAH!!!! I thought what a stupid song. Second time I listened to it....I was kind of swaying with the beats and the third time I was totally floored!!!! Hugely impressed by the way akon has handled the "hindi lyrics" in the song. Do you want a dose of Chammak Challo......Then watch,listen and enjoy ;)
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
OK..........GUILTY......CAN'T REMEMBER NAMES!!!!
Well, am a bit of a ghajini, as far as remembering a person's name is concerned. I can remember everything about them, but I forget names and ONLY names. Its the same with my dad too. He will remember every single detail like where the person is from, his job, when he met him........except for the NAME!!!!
To be honest, its really embarrassing.......its not like how some people forget another person's name if they have met only for a single time or haven't met each other at all for several years alltogether.Its not the case. I first noticed this problem of mine when I was studying in school, when I would come back after my summer vacation(2 months leave) and I would have trouble remembering my classmate's names!!!!!!!!!!! I am NOT exaggerating! I couldn't tell them that, so I would just get near them and chat and take up their new & fresh notebooks and textbooks(they are sure to write their names there!!!) and find it out that way!
This happens to me even now, wonder why, maybe that part of my brain is not developed, or maybe its in the "genes"(oh by the way thanks dad!!! lol)
So, next time, my dear long lost friends(if at all you ever read this.......am not deliberately forgetting your name).Its a bloody brain handicap!!!!
so when you meet me please go like this
and plz do reintroduce.......remember I am Aamir in Ghajini reincarnated :D
So, thats for now.....till next time......oh by the way what was I blabbering about........*going blank* ...........
To be honest, its really embarrassing.......its not like how some people forget another person's name if they have met only for a single time or haven't met each other at all for several years alltogether.Its not the case. I first noticed this problem of mine when I was studying in school, when I would come back after my summer vacation(2 months leave) and I would have trouble remembering my classmate's names!!!!!!!!!!! I am NOT exaggerating! I couldn't tell them that, so I would just get near them and chat and take up their new & fresh notebooks and textbooks(they are sure to write their names there!!!) and find it out that way!
This happens to me even now, wonder why, maybe that part of my brain is not developed, or maybe its in the "genes"(oh by the way thanks dad!!! lol)
So, next time, my dear long lost friends(if at all you ever read this.......am not deliberately forgetting your name).Its a bloody brain handicap!!!!
so when you meet me please go like this
and plz do reintroduce.......remember I am Aamir in Ghajini reincarnated :D
So, thats for now.....till next time......oh by the way what was I blabbering about........*going blank* ...........
Saturday, 7 May 2011
ANYONE INTO KOREAN & CHINESE MOVIES..........
I am a huge fan of korean & Chinese movies, and not just the "kim-ki-duk" variety.......but most of the korean & Chinese movies in general. I have always thought that they come up with some of the most original plots, the picturisation and the story telling is just amazing! (ya ya I do know there are a lot of teen korean & chinese movies out there and am not talking about them). Recently I saw a movie called "House of flying daggers".Its not a straight out martial arts movie, but a romantic movie with an amazing plot twist. It portrays the story of a blind dancer, who is suspected to be the daughter of a rebel group leader and the officers of the dynasty arrests her. She lost her father and now the "dynasty" thinks there is a new leader amongst the rebels and she is one among them. Two local deputies, devise a plan and tries to play the "good cop", "bad cop" routine. The one who is pretending to be "good" releases her out of prison but is constantly behind her and watching her every move, and mind you, the "good guy" is an outright womaniser and tries to charm our lady protagonist.
To be frank and not to be the one to spoil the plot .........the movie is a tragedy, but in my opinion a beautiful tragedy. I have not seen a movie being played out so tragically romantic at the very end. Please watch to understand........I don't want to give out any more details......
The main plus point of the movie is usage of really vibrant colors, exotic locales, amazing performance, plot twists, some martial art thrown in between and excellent cinematography. Don't worry, the movie comes with subtitles......
Image source:-from google
Atfirst, You wont understand as to what is happening and would feel like stopping the movie.......don't do that........have some patience and watch it till the end......its mind blowing(atleast it was for me :D )
So, here is enclosing a clip, to get you interested into the movie (I am very persuasive huh...... :D).
Just skip to the 10:50 part on the clip that am gonna attach below and you will be amazed......and from then on I am pretty sure you will be hooked to the movie. Anyway, if you do see the movie, leave me some feedback....I love recieving comments and ofcourse, if any of you guys are foreign "asian" movie freaks like myself........do gimme suggestions, would love to watch new movies and pluz if you would like me to tell you my top 5 "MUST SEE ASIAN MOVIES".....leave that in the comment, I can recommend a few........
To be frank and not to be the one to spoil the plot .........the movie is a tragedy, but in my opinion a beautiful tragedy. I have not seen a movie being played out so tragically romantic at the very end. Please watch to understand........I don't want to give out any more details......
The main plus point of the movie is usage of really vibrant colors, exotic locales, amazing performance, plot twists, some martial art thrown in between and excellent cinematography. Don't worry, the movie comes with subtitles......
Image source:-from google
Atfirst, You wont understand as to what is happening and would feel like stopping the movie.......don't do that........have some patience and watch it till the end......its mind blowing(atleast it was for me :D )
So, here is enclosing a clip, to get you interested into the movie (I am very persuasive huh...... :D).
Just skip to the 10:50 part on the clip that am gonna attach below and you will be amazed......and from then on I am pretty sure you will be hooked to the movie. Anyway, if you do see the movie, leave me some feedback....I love recieving comments and ofcourse, if any of you guys are foreign "asian" movie freaks like myself........do gimme suggestions, would love to watch new movies and pluz if you would like me to tell you my top 5 "MUST SEE ASIAN MOVIES".....leave that in the comment, I can recommend a few........
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
MEIN KAROON TOH SAALA CHARACTER DHEELA HAI!!!!!
OK.......sometimes, I feel like telling some of my friends to go to hell, tell my "in-laws" and "relatives" to GTH!!! Sometimes, I feel that my parents have gone crazy and my sis is the paranoid one with lot of problems!!! I get angry with my hubby for no reason......um.........errrrr.....I think am contradicting my earlier post lol.......but sometimes I just feel like telling everyone to back off!!!!
One of my friends(one of my doc friends) found that I have a beauty blog and it was made "flash" and now they consider me "vein"(sorry......pun, intended)Aren't you supposed to concentrate on ur studies.........well......duh!!! I know what am doing!!!Its my way of UNWINDING!!!! Watever!!!! can't a lady have many sides to her......guess not. I am just on the edge and feel like tipping over any second. I need my close friends, great music and a bit of an upper!!!!I might really burst out one day. But I know, if I tell ppl what I feel to their faces.......I will be branded
""MAIN KAROON TOH SAALA CHARACTER DHEELA HAIN"
Oh.......I very well know am not making sense to a lot of people, but its great to be senseless sometimes and just rant & rave......so right now I just want to be salman and dance to the song right below!!!!!
One of my friends(one of my doc friends) found that I have a beauty blog and it was made "flash" and now they consider me "vein"(sorry......pun, intended)Aren't you supposed to concentrate on ur studies.........well......duh!!! I know what am doing!!!Its my way of UNWINDING!!!! Watever!!!! can't a lady have many sides to her......guess not. I am just on the edge and feel like tipping over any second. I need my close friends, great music and a bit of an upper!!!!I might really burst out one day. But I know, if I tell ppl what I feel to their faces.......I will be branded
""MAIN KAROON TOH SAALA CHARACTER DHEELA HAIN"
Oh.......I very well know am not making sense to a lot of people, but its great to be senseless sometimes and just rant & rave......so right now I just want to be salman and dance to the song right below!!!!!
And by the way go ahead and judge me even more, I actually enjoy the song, that am gonna give below.......it might be "B" or "C" grade...but I love it....kya karein character dheela hain!!!!
Friday, 29 April 2011
WAKE UP AMMU!!!!
Well, that is not my real name....but that is what my husband likes to call me. Ok...I am not bragging....I am the youngest of two daughters, I come from an affluent family in kerala, our(my dad's) social & financial circle is really huge! I have 2 servants at home to do everything at my beck and call. I have four cars and definitely driver to drive me around. But I fell in love with a man who doesn't have all this.......but hey he is in the navy......we knew each other for 5 yrs before we tied the knot. Eventhough I had all the "big stuff" at home...I am thankful to my dad for keeping me and my sis grounded. My dad was not born into money and he made it on his own and he knows the value, so he showed us to treat everyone with respect and told us that the "servants" were people who are here to keep our lives more easier....and that they are not lesser human beings. I am thankful to him for that.
But, when I got married.......it was a different ballgame all together. My hubby is a great guy, has a great job, but he doesn't have the "affluent" family like mine...so he is pretty much grounded. He knows his way around things. I am a doc by profession. After I got married I was sent away to Mumbai(my hubby is in the navy and he is posted there) and frankly I was the ranbir and him......konkona sen.....he taught me the "basic" life from scratch.....I didn't know how to buy grocery, I couldn't cook a decent meal, and I certaily had not grown up without a mansion, servants,money(at my beck and call) and most of all transportation!!!(am being honest here....so dont judge me). So, for those who has seen the movie "wake up sid".....they surely can relate to this post......am sure.......am gonna attach a youtube video at the end and reverse the roles plz (am ranbir and my hubby is konkona). Am thankful to have him in my life........he is my pillar....he is the one I turn to when I need a dose of reality shot!!!!
It was my decision to remain at home and do nothing('coz after 5 yrs of MBBS you kinda get tired.....but hey now am back at kerala and I have joined my pg entrance coaching classes!!) and wanted to enjoy life. I was bored in Mumbai when he left for his job and I was left alone......Thats how I started my blog......wwww.indianmakeupways.com(i was ashamed to start it........its a beauty blog and am a doctor for gods sake!!!! PPL may not take me seriously).He gave me full support, when you read the very first posts, u will know, how very vulnerable and naive a blogger I was. The 2 bloggers who gave me strength where anamika(wise she) and rashmi(indyabeauty) and most of all my husband.
He showed me how to live life, how to catch a bus or train, to learn to cook, and also to pursue my "side passion" or alter ego "indianmakeupways". I love u so much. Our anniversary is on 10th of may and I am so blessed to have you in my life........
So, above, thats my wake up (sid) Ammu moment, and i am adding this video in here.....but plz just reverse the roles in here (konkana-my hubby &ranbir-moi) :D And by the way happy anniversary in advance honey.......love u lots!!!! :)
But, when I got married.......it was a different ballgame all together. My hubby is a great guy, has a great job, but he doesn't have the "affluent" family like mine...so he is pretty much grounded. He knows his way around things. I am a doc by profession. After I got married I was sent away to Mumbai(my hubby is in the navy and he is posted there) and frankly I was the ranbir and him......konkona sen.....he taught me the "basic" life from scratch.....I didn't know how to buy grocery, I couldn't cook a decent meal, and I certaily had not grown up without a mansion, servants,money(at my beck and call) and most of all transportation!!!(am being honest here....so dont judge me). So, for those who has seen the movie "wake up sid".....they surely can relate to this post......am sure.......am gonna attach a youtube video at the end and reverse the roles plz (am ranbir and my hubby is konkona). Am thankful to have him in my life........he is my pillar....he is the one I turn to when I need a dose of reality shot!!!!
It was my decision to remain at home and do nothing('coz after 5 yrs of MBBS you kinda get tired.....but hey now am back at kerala and I have joined my pg entrance coaching classes!!) and wanted to enjoy life. I was bored in Mumbai when he left for his job and I was left alone......Thats how I started my blog......wwww.indianmakeupways.com(i was ashamed to start it........its a beauty blog and am a doctor for gods sake!!!! PPL may not take me seriously).He gave me full support, when you read the very first posts, u will know, how very vulnerable and naive a blogger I was. The 2 bloggers who gave me strength where anamika(wise she) and rashmi(indyabeauty) and most of all my husband.
He showed me how to live life, how to catch a bus or train, to learn to cook, and also to pursue my "side passion" or alter ego "indianmakeupways". I love u so much. Our anniversary is on 10th of may and I am so blessed to have you in my life........
So, above, thats my wake up (sid) Ammu moment, and i am adding this video in here.....but plz just reverse the roles in here (konkana-my hubby &ranbir-moi) :D And by the way happy anniversary in advance honey.......love u lots!!!! :)
Wednesday, 27 April 2011
Kaadhal Sadugudu............
Before I got married......my concept of marriage was very sacred.........even now it is........it was more like someone who understands me whether I am sober or not........weird huh....... was just watching this song in tamil......this movie was remade into a movie "saathiya", in bollywood and it was a super duper hit in tamil(alaipaayuthe) and made "madhavan's" career!!!! Life is so great in those honeymoon period, not that it gets awfully bad after that.........but ppl tend to take each other for granted(reality kicks in). When I was in a relationship with my hubby, if i did send a bad msg, he would call me 10000 times to know as to what happened.......now, he does call......but just 10 times......is this is the life that i envisioned.........not that I got anything bad.......but I still would give anything to have that "no strings attached" but "i want u my love more than anything" in this world tag :) :D ;)
The same song in hindi
The same song in hindi
Saturday, 23 April 2011
View my book review
Hey, I have decided to do something new. I have uploaded a video. Am reviewing the book that I have been reading. Do watch it and give me comments and feedback and support me by subscribing to my youtube channel ;) Love you guys
Thursday, 21 April 2011
WHAT DO YOU DO????????
Am bored, outta my mind, angry, sad, depressed and then what happens????? I walk into a crafts & stationery shop and pick up something UNUSUAL!!! atleast for meeeeeee....I picked up some oil pastels!!!!I have NEVER worked with them and I have never shown any interest either......EVER!!!! I was on the verge of looking for DRUGS!!!!...lol am joking...hmmmm maybe not!!!!! you outta ur mind?????? ofcourse am joking! I love to joke around....by my style of writing itself you would have understood that I am not in my realm right?????? Anyway to cut the long story short, I made a small (BIG FOR ME) pastel abstract painting for myself.....and I feel pretty good! Love the colors, the strokes, the freedom and most of all that time slot gives me a vaccum.....a vaccum from real life!!....ok...so am attaching the "DE LIFE ON DA ROCKS" which is going to be a masterpiece someday. Be my follower now and you will get 50% off if and ever it goes out on auction :D
So waddya think????? Aint I good??????? LOL
So waddya think????? Aint I good??????? LOL
Monday, 18 April 2011
Social Networking can "GIVE" you family......
Prologue:-
We are two sisters and I don't have a brother. I have always pined for an elder brother, there is no rhyme or reason to it. But God answered my prayers in the form of a brother who is 6ft3 tall and I met him through Yahoo chat!!!! Yup, you heard me right. I met him when I was just 15 yrs old, let me not get into the details (lest he might sue me LOL).He was the one there to support me 'coz I was going through a rough patch and I have to say he is rude, brash, crude, insensitive......more than that, he is my BROTHER. Who said blood is thicker than water????? Whoever said that never took into account relationships like friends or even "acquired" family members; though I hate the term!!!!
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My eyes are misty. Tears well up in my eyes and for the first time in my life I was speechless. My heart was brimming with joy, with love. Yes.....at last I found him,the person whom I have been searching in all this 17 years. My Brother!
Mine is a very close knit family. Just four people are there in my home including myself. My older sister is the one person I love the most after my parents. I am surely a blessed child. The gods have given me everything. A loving family,good friends, nice school all the things which a small heart can ever wish for....except....the love of a Brother.......
From a very small age i have seen my friends and my cousins playing with their elder brothers.Me , being a 5 year old at that time would look up to the sky (as my Amma told that the god's home is there) and fold my hands and close my eyes to say a silent prayer inside my heart. A prayer which i am so very familiar with. I always ask for a brother, tall,big and strong like the He-Man in the cartoons I used to see at my younger ages.
I would always go to the doorstep and look out. My eyes will search each and every passerby hoping that Ganapathi Bappa will soon send me a brother. How naive I was! My Vallayammachi (grandma) used to narrate stories from the puranas. From Mahabharatha I came to know that the kauravas had only one sister. How nice it would have been for Dusshala to bask in the love of so many brothers who love her so much! I often ask my Vallyamachi as to whether I will be getting my own elder brother or not? She will give me a smile and tell me to wish real hard, so that the gods might listen to my pleading and actually give me one. I, believing it, would pray hard each and every single day…..
Days went by, I grew up.I became intelligent enough to understand that I was so very stupid to pray to Gods and I can’t have any brother. But then also, I never let go of the hope. I nurtured the beautiful moment of seeing my brother for the first time in my mind. The little girl inside me would keep on telling me to have the faith in Ganapathi Bappa and he will surely one day give me a brother out of nowhere! But the rational part of me would tell me to grow up and let go of childish fantasies.
Imaginary friends are always part of a girl's life. So I created an imaginary brother and named him ARJUN. The mighty one among the Pandavas. I have always been fascinated by the character ARJUN. The perfect one with the Ganthiva, who had lord krishna for his best friend. Nobody could defeat him! My brother, the one I had created was also like that. When loneliness cave in on me I would talk with my ARJUN and every single depression would vanish.
Little did I know that the Gods would hear my prayer. I talked with my brother, Mr.cool, for the first time a few months back. To be precise on August 2000. He came to me to give me advice. I am the type of person who doesn’t like anyone restricting me. I had never called anyone Anna ……but him…..He simply made me say that word out of my mouth.
Yes, we would fight….like cats and dogs. He would have an opinion about anything and everything. We had a “Formal Relation”. I spoke to him through Phone and typed long mails. He would keep on sending me cards and advices.
After some months, he said, that his task was over and that I am back to my old momentum and that he should say good bye from my life. An unbearable pain gripped my heart. I was startled to find out the depth of my love towards him and how I was affected by this person , whom, I called “Anna”. I couldn’t let him go. I haven’t seen his face. But I was much too familiar with his sound.
For the first time after such a long break I folded my hands, looked up to the sky and prayed hard to Ganapathi Bappa and he did hear my prayer without any fail.
I know that what me and annan share is a strange relation. People outside may not be able to understand it. But my heart says that this bonding had to happen. It was “meant to be”! My love towards my brother is as pure as Lord Krishna.
We met face to face on april 2001. He smiled and my eyes grew misty and my heart was ready to burst. I met my ARJUN at last! Inside my mind I was crying with joy and tears did drop down my cheek but I wiped it off quickly. I didn’t want him to see that I was this sentimental.
A strange sense of peace enveloped me. It was raining outside at that very particular moment. Yes, the nature was also rejoicing by shedding her tears along with me………..
(The story contains facts and if by any chance you find out that this is fiction, just go ahead and sue me. LOL. I wrote this atleast 4 yrs back but baring it to the world only now.This is my story......this is how i found my long lost brother........)
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Epilogue:- He is married now, has a beautiful wife and an even more beautiful baby daughter. I am married to a wonderful man. I am happy that our respective spouses understand our bond even though we "met" on the net!!! Our families are close too.....I have seen a lot of people finding their life partners through the net but am sure this relation is one in a billion!!!! :)
I know am being sappy with this song, guess am like that :D
We are two sisters and I don't have a brother. I have always pined for an elder brother, there is no rhyme or reason to it. But God answered my prayers in the form of a brother who is 6ft3 tall and I met him through Yahoo chat!!!! Yup, you heard me right. I met him when I was just 15 yrs old, let me not get into the details (lest he might sue me LOL).He was the one there to support me 'coz I was going through a rough patch and I have to say he is rude, brash, crude, insensitive......more than that, he is my BROTHER. Who said blood is thicker than water????? Whoever said that never took into account relationships like friends or even "acquired" family members; though I hate the term!!!!
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My eyes are misty. Tears well up in my eyes and for the first time in my life I was speechless. My heart was brimming with joy, with love. Yes.....at last I found him,the person whom I have been searching in all this 17 years. My Brother!
Mine is a very close knit family. Just four people are there in my home including myself. My older sister is the one person I love the most after my parents. I am surely a blessed child. The gods have given me everything. A loving family,good friends, nice school all the things which a small heart can ever wish for....except....the love of a Brother.......
From a very small age i have seen my friends and my cousins playing with their elder brothers.Me , being a 5 year old at that time would look up to the sky (as my Amma told that the god's home is there) and fold my hands and close my eyes to say a silent prayer inside my heart. A prayer which i am so very familiar with. I always ask for a brother, tall,big and strong like the He-Man in the cartoons I used to see at my younger ages.
I would always go to the doorstep and look out. My eyes will search each and every passerby hoping that Ganapathi Bappa will soon send me a brother. How naive I was! My Vallayammachi (grandma) used to narrate stories from the puranas. From Mahabharatha I came to know that the kauravas had only one sister. How nice it would have been for Dusshala to bask in the love of so many brothers who love her so much! I often ask my Vallyamachi as to whether I will be getting my own elder brother or not? She will give me a smile and tell me to wish real hard, so that the gods might listen to my pleading and actually give me one. I, believing it, would pray hard each and every single day…..
Days went by, I grew up.I became intelligent enough to understand that I was so very stupid to pray to Gods and I can’t have any brother. But then also, I never let go of the hope. I nurtured the beautiful moment of seeing my brother for the first time in my mind. The little girl inside me would keep on telling me to have the faith in Ganapathi Bappa and he will surely one day give me a brother out of nowhere! But the rational part of me would tell me to grow up and let go of childish fantasies.
Imaginary friends are always part of a girl's life. So I created an imaginary brother and named him ARJUN. The mighty one among the Pandavas. I have always been fascinated by the character ARJUN. The perfect one with the Ganthiva, who had lord krishna for his best friend. Nobody could defeat him! My brother, the one I had created was also like that. When loneliness cave in on me I would talk with my ARJUN and every single depression would vanish.
Little did I know that the Gods would hear my prayer. I talked with my brother, Mr.cool, for the first time a few months back. To be precise on August 2000. He came to me to give me advice. I am the type of person who doesn’t like anyone restricting me. I had never called anyone Anna ……but him…..He simply made me say that word out of my mouth.
Yes, we would fight….like cats and dogs. He would have an opinion about anything and everything. We had a “Formal Relation”. I spoke to him through Phone and typed long mails. He would keep on sending me cards and advices.
After some months, he said, that his task was over and that I am back to my old momentum and that he should say good bye from my life. An unbearable pain gripped my heart. I was startled to find out the depth of my love towards him and how I was affected by this person , whom, I called “Anna”. I couldn’t let him go. I haven’t seen his face. But I was much too familiar with his sound.
For the first time after such a long break I folded my hands, looked up to the sky and prayed hard to Ganapathi Bappa and he did hear my prayer without any fail.
I know that what me and annan share is a strange relation. People outside may not be able to understand it. But my heart says that this bonding had to happen. It was “meant to be”! My love towards my brother is as pure as Lord Krishna.
We met face to face on april 2001. He smiled and my eyes grew misty and my heart was ready to burst. I met my ARJUN at last! Inside my mind I was crying with joy and tears did drop down my cheek but I wiped it off quickly. I didn’t want him to see that I was this sentimental.
A strange sense of peace enveloped me. It was raining outside at that very particular moment. Yes, the nature was also rejoicing by shedding her tears along with me………..
(The story contains facts and if by any chance you find out that this is fiction, just go ahead and sue me. LOL. I wrote this atleast 4 yrs back but baring it to the world only now.This is my story......this is how i found my long lost brother........)
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Epilogue:- He is married now, has a beautiful wife and an even more beautiful baby daughter. I am married to a wonderful man. I am happy that our respective spouses understand our bond even though we "met" on the net!!! Our families are close too.....I have seen a lot of people finding their life partners through the net but am sure this relation is one in a billion!!!! :)
I know am being sappy with this song, guess am like that :D
Sunday, 17 April 2011
Gotta Give A Kick to Myself.....
I have been down all week, well........I had a real crappy week. Not able to study properly, angry with anything and everything, not even talking to my family that well. I have been having this really irritating backpain which has been bugging me for quite some time....
Had to take an MRI 'coz of all the pain........guess what, I have Spina Bifida Occulta!!!(medical term for a congenital anomaly in my spine). Nothing major to worry about, but I don't think I will ever be able to do a lot of strenuous work in my life. I have been advised a week of rest and also some medicines to ease the pain!!!. I just feel so dejected! Can't explain it. I am a doctor.......I am supposed to understand..but I don't! Whatever! Its like suddenly I have lost interest in everything........maybe the feeling will pass.......feeling angry with my hubby too...... Can't help it....I know what I am doing is not right.......isolating myself........I guess thats just the way I am.
I hope the mood passes soon enough. What I need is my friends, wine, couple of *you rock gal* attitude from everyone :D and some great songs to get me by....The one that has caught my fancy right now is the one below. Hope u all are having a great weekend. take care y'all
Had to take an MRI 'coz of all the pain........guess what, I have Spina Bifida Occulta!!!(medical term for a congenital anomaly in my spine). Nothing major to worry about, but I don't think I will ever be able to do a lot of strenuous work in my life. I have been advised a week of rest and also some medicines to ease the pain!!!. I just feel so dejected! Can't explain it. I am a doctor.......I am supposed to understand..but I don't! Whatever! Its like suddenly I have lost interest in everything........maybe the feeling will pass.......feeling angry with my hubby too...... Can't help it....I know what I am doing is not right.......isolating myself........I guess thats just the way I am.
I hope the mood passes soon enough. What I need is my friends, wine, couple of *you rock gal* attitude from everyone :D and some great songs to get me by....The one that has caught my fancy right now is the one below. Hope u all are having a great weekend. take care y'all
Friday, 15 April 2011
THE BIEBER FEVER.........
Ok.....I know am not a teenager and shouldn't be writing some post about a teen idol named Justin Bieber of all people! Not that I consider him bad or anything........its just that he is a bit too "young-ish" for my taste lol
This boy is a canadian singer who used to put videos on youtube and was discovered there and was then later signed on by Usher's record company and after that there was just no turning back for this sensation. The most common word originated 'coz of him is the "Bieber Fever' and he made the "Lesbian haircut"(wonder why they call it that......ok...the guy has loads of hair........so wat!!!) syndrome quite popular!
Now, why am I writing this post.......Hmmmmmm...... I am a fan of the Sitcom "GLEE" and in one of their latest episodes they had featured two of his songs and I have to say, its quite good :) I like them *guilty* I know (ME blushing :D). Check them out here....
Glee version
Original version of baby ft ludacris
Glee version of somebody to love
The original version
I have to admit, the kid sure has talent, ok.. ok...make fun of me.......i like his music (shileding myself from all the hurled out insults).
But the thing that really caught my attention was this. Do watch this, its hilarious!!!!
The bieber fever sure is catching up! even with 3 year olds!!! lol. Anyway whats your opinion about him....by the way, he cut his hair....this is the new look!
Me digging this bieber! what about u all.....
This boy is a canadian singer who used to put videos on youtube and was discovered there and was then later signed on by Usher's record company and after that there was just no turning back for this sensation. The most common word originated 'coz of him is the "Bieber Fever' and he made the "Lesbian haircut"(wonder why they call it that......ok...the guy has loads of hair........so wat!!!) syndrome quite popular!
Now, why am I writing this post.......Hmmmmmm...... I am a fan of the Sitcom "GLEE" and in one of their latest episodes they had featured two of his songs and I have to say, its quite good :) I like them *guilty* I know (ME blushing :D). Check them out here....
Glee version
Original version of baby ft ludacris
Glee version of somebody to love
The original version
I have to admit, the kid sure has talent, ok.. ok...make fun of me.......i like his music (shileding myself from all the hurled out insults).
But the thing that really caught my attention was this. Do watch this, its hilarious!!!!
The bieber fever sure is catching up! even with 3 year olds!!! lol. Anyway whats your opinion about him....by the way, he cut his hair....this is the new look!
Me digging this bieber! what about u all.....
Dear Stranger..........Thanks
This happened to me some yrs back when I was doing my third year MBBS. We all had to visit an alcohol de-addiction center which was situated near a beach. So, community medicine posting and the assignments are kind of like an outing for us. After all we were going to the beach!!!!! :D We were a batch of 20-25 people who visited the place on that day and after the visit we begged our professor to let us enjoy some time at the beach. THankfully she agreed and here we were with our Doctor's coats and Stethoscopes, having a ball!
Now, let me get to my "story". When it was time to leave, some of my friends complained that they were thirsty and I went to a nearby shop to get a bottle of water and to my astonishment when I returned the van in which we came in was gone!My "great friends" forgot that I am left behind and simply went off. At those times we were not allowed to carry our mobiles with us(college policy!..weird......I know) I was standing at this road, which is practically deserted even though its afternoon and suddenly two guys come up to me on their bikes and asked me if i am interested.........and I was like WHAT!!!!! and they again asked me my "RATE"!!!! Here I am, all dressed up in my doctor's coat and a stethoscope to boot and what did these guys think.........that am into ROLE PLAY????? I was much too stunned to even answer......'coz it came out of nowhere and to be honest the place was like kind of isolated, so I tried to move away from them and thankfully a lady who was trying to sell peanuts at the beach saw this and came to my side because she understood, that there is something wrong (She had seen me come with my friends) and those F****** on the bike decided to leave.
Suddenly, there is this another guy who is coming up on his bike and he started telling me something and honestly I didn't listen as I was seething with rage and I told him to just "F*** off". He looked at me back in the most disgusted way and just took off. Suddenly the man from whom I had bought the bottle of water came up to me and told me that this other man had seen my friends take off in the college van and caught up with them and told them that I am still standing at the beach and that I am stranded!
Well, to cut the story short, my van with my "friends" came back (I was so angry with them for leaving me and not noticing ) and I felt sooooooooo bad, because I coudn't say THANK YOU to that wonderful stranger who helped me. I know its not my fault that I behaved the way I did with him, but I just wish that my behaviour doesn't deter him from helping someone else in the future. Just because of those two bloody B****** , I couldn't express my gratitude to someone who helped me when I needed it the most.
I just want to say a big THANK YOU to that stranger and where ever you are, you really saved me that day! :)
Now, let me get to my "story". When it was time to leave, some of my friends complained that they were thirsty and I went to a nearby shop to get a bottle of water and to my astonishment when I returned the van in which we came in was gone!My "great friends" forgot that I am left behind and simply went off. At those times we were not allowed to carry our mobiles with us(college policy!..weird......I know) I was standing at this road, which is practically deserted even though its afternoon and suddenly two guys come up to me on their bikes and asked me if i am interested.........and I was like WHAT!!!!! and they again asked me my "RATE"!!!! Here I am, all dressed up in my doctor's coat and a stethoscope to boot and what did these guys think.........that am into ROLE PLAY????? I was much too stunned to even answer......'coz it came out of nowhere and to be honest the place was like kind of isolated, so I tried to move away from them and thankfully a lady who was trying to sell peanuts at the beach saw this and came to my side because she understood, that there is something wrong (She had seen me come with my friends) and those F****** on the bike decided to leave.
Suddenly, there is this another guy who is coming up on his bike and he started telling me something and honestly I didn't listen as I was seething with rage and I told him to just "F*** off". He looked at me back in the most disgusted way and just took off. Suddenly the man from whom I had bought the bottle of water came up to me and told me that this other man had seen my friends take off in the college van and caught up with them and told them that I am still standing at the beach and that I am stranded!
Well, to cut the story short, my van with my "friends" came back (I was so angry with them for leaving me and not noticing ) and I felt sooooooooo bad, because I coudn't say THANK YOU to that wonderful stranger who helped me. I know its not my fault that I behaved the way I did with him, but I just wish that my behaviour doesn't deter him from helping someone else in the future. Just because of those two bloody B****** , I couldn't express my gratitude to someone who helped me when I needed it the most.
I just want to say a big THANK YOU to that stranger and where ever you are, you really saved me that day! :)
Wednesday, 13 April 2011
JUST A STORY.........
I had written this story a long time back for "woman's era" magazine, but sadly it never got accepted lol. Anyway I am "pasting" it here so that you guys can get bored :D
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Sitting on the verandah and looking at the rain used to be my favourite past time when I was a child. Now, I have grown up. But today I wanted to be the old me. I wanted to catch up on the small joys that life had to offer. Already I had missed an enormous part of it. I extended my hand out to catch the tiny drops and was pleasantly surprised by the coolness it gave to my mind. Yet, my eyes turned misty.
I saw him first on a rainy day. He walked up to me and gave me a smile. We had known each other in the past so many years through letters. We were meeting for the first time. I had never seen such a face like his. It portrayed innocence. He was very charming and we ended up talking like two long lost friends even though we were seeing each other for the very first time.
“Amma, phone adikkithu, naan edukkattuma?” my thoughts were cut short by jaanaki, my servant.
“No. I will take it” slowly I got up and took the phone.
“Hello” I said in a tired tone.
“Madhvi, I will be a bit late today. Don’t wait up for me. Have your dinner and go to sleep ok? Bye love”
My husband didn’t even bother to hear me say bye to him. He had already kept the phone.
I have been married for 3 months to a “well educated and rich” man, my parents found. He was suitable for me in every sense or so they thought. But, I never felt comfortable around him. He was the practical sort of guy, the total opposite of me. I loved dreams, poetry, rain and the small things life had to offer. But, he never has time for any of that. He is always busy working. I never complained either. Not, that he isn’t a good husband, somehow I never felt myself with him. I gave a small sigh and went back to sit on the verandah. By now the rain was beating down with all its might. I sat down and tried to pick up my thoughts from where I left off.
The song “Mein kade bandh kar” by Hariharan came into my mind. It was his favourite song……..no “our” favourite song. He would always hum it. He was such a great singer. I would always pester him to sing some ghazal or the other. While he sings, I would put my head on his shoulder and close my eyes. I always felt calm and secure with him.
We were slowly falling in love. From the “best friends” we had moved a lot forward. But neither of us confided this fact to each other.
One day I was writing a poem in tamil and I didn’t see my mom come up behind me. She slowly tapped me on my shoulders. I was startled and shut my book. This was a poem for him. After reading that, he would understand what I felt for him.
My mother looked at me. Her face was calm and filled with concern. My heart began to beat fast.
“Madhu, don’t ever let your Appa down. He harbors such high hopes for you. Don’t do anything to break his heart.” saying that she went out of my room. I sat there stunned. My dreams came crashing down. I perfectly understood what she felt.
I took my book and opened the page; I saw my poem looking back at me. The dream was getting shattered even before I woke up. I wrote down a sentence in the end “NOT MEANT TO BE!” that hurt! My fingers began to tremble.
In the coming days I began to either avoid him or treat him in a very friendly manner. He was quite baffled by the sudden turn of events. One day he called me up and told he loved me. He was on the verge of tears. But I told him very harshly that he was just a friend for me and not to contact me ever again. My heart was breaking. My lips were quivering with sobs waiting to come out and my eyes betrayed me by letting the tears run down my cheeks. Oh! If only he could see me now!
He did as he was told. I never heard from him ever again.
The radio began playing “Mein kade bandh kar” and it brought me to reality. Suddenly I heard the horn of a car and looked out to the gate. Who could that be? The security went and opened the gate; it was still raining hard.
It was sudheer, my husband. Why did he come early? He pulled the car on to the porch and got out. I looked at him questioningly.
“I wanted to surprise you. I know how you love the rain. I would love to take you on a ride in the car now”
I couldn’t believe it. Emotions were surging inside. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. I went running to him and threw myself into his arms. I brought my lips close to his ears and told “ I love you sudheer” I didn’t want to keep it from him. I didn’t want to lose him. I didn’t want to commit the same mistake again. Now, I am happy and I am free.
And by the way, this is the song that I am referring to in the story. I used to love it.......still do..... :)
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Sitting on the verandah and looking at the rain used to be my favourite past time when I was a child. Now, I have grown up. But today I wanted to be the old me. I wanted to catch up on the small joys that life had to offer. Already I had missed an enormous part of it. I extended my hand out to catch the tiny drops and was pleasantly surprised by the coolness it gave to my mind. Yet, my eyes turned misty.
I saw him first on a rainy day. He walked up to me and gave me a smile. We had known each other in the past so many years through letters. We were meeting for the first time. I had never seen such a face like his. It portrayed innocence. He was very charming and we ended up talking like two long lost friends even though we were seeing each other for the very first time.
“Amma, phone adikkithu, naan edukkattuma?” my thoughts were cut short by jaanaki, my servant.
“No. I will take it” slowly I got up and took the phone.
“Hello” I said in a tired tone.
“Madhvi, I will be a bit late today. Don’t wait up for me. Have your dinner and go to sleep ok? Bye love”
My husband didn’t even bother to hear me say bye to him. He had already kept the phone.
I have been married for 3 months to a “well educated and rich” man, my parents found. He was suitable for me in every sense or so they thought. But, I never felt comfortable around him. He was the practical sort of guy, the total opposite of me. I loved dreams, poetry, rain and the small things life had to offer. But, he never has time for any of that. He is always busy working. I never complained either. Not, that he isn’t a good husband, somehow I never felt myself with him. I gave a small sigh and went back to sit on the verandah. By now the rain was beating down with all its might. I sat down and tried to pick up my thoughts from where I left off.
The song “Mein kade bandh kar” by Hariharan came into my mind. It was his favourite song……..no “our” favourite song. He would always hum it. He was such a great singer. I would always pester him to sing some ghazal or the other. While he sings, I would put my head on his shoulder and close my eyes. I always felt calm and secure with him.
We were slowly falling in love. From the “best friends” we had moved a lot forward. But neither of us confided this fact to each other.
One day I was writing a poem in tamil and I didn’t see my mom come up behind me. She slowly tapped me on my shoulders. I was startled and shut my book. This was a poem for him. After reading that, he would understand what I felt for him.
My mother looked at me. Her face was calm and filled with concern. My heart began to beat fast.
“Madhu, don’t ever let your Appa down. He harbors such high hopes for you. Don’t do anything to break his heart.” saying that she went out of my room. I sat there stunned. My dreams came crashing down. I perfectly understood what she felt.
I took my book and opened the page; I saw my poem looking back at me. The dream was getting shattered even before I woke up. I wrote down a sentence in the end “NOT MEANT TO BE!” that hurt! My fingers began to tremble.
In the coming days I began to either avoid him or treat him in a very friendly manner. He was quite baffled by the sudden turn of events. One day he called me up and told he loved me. He was on the verge of tears. But I told him very harshly that he was just a friend for me and not to contact me ever again. My heart was breaking. My lips were quivering with sobs waiting to come out and my eyes betrayed me by letting the tears run down my cheeks. Oh! If only he could see me now!
He did as he was told. I never heard from him ever again.
The radio began playing “Mein kade bandh kar” and it brought me to reality. Suddenly I heard the horn of a car and looked out to the gate. Who could that be? The security went and opened the gate; it was still raining hard.
It was sudheer, my husband. Why did he come early? He pulled the car on to the porch and got out. I looked at him questioningly.
“I wanted to surprise you. I know how you love the rain. I would love to take you on a ride in the car now”
I couldn’t believe it. Emotions were surging inside. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. I went running to him and threw myself into his arms. I brought my lips close to his ears and told “ I love you sudheer” I didn’t want to keep it from him. I didn’t want to lose him. I didn’t want to commit the same mistake again. Now, I am happy and I am free.
And by the way, this is the song that I am referring to in the story. I used to love it.......still do..... :)
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